April 2009
42 posts
i think its time
we’ll wait, and wait, and continue to wait for it. if you’d only stop, just imagine, there’s rear behind their waiting. little feet, cold and bruised, little hearts, bump in the night. he’s been stolen, now imagine it. he’s starting to not feel anything. let’s go take him back, bring him home, not hand out toy soldiers, because he’s been there. that...
“everyone has three lives: a public life, a private life, and a secret life”
– gabriel garcía márquez
“like when you’re going to kiss someone for the first time, and...”
– a grampa at the counter (melt my heart)
one more
follow my lead, dear. it’s over, over, done with, and i’m through. when it’s late out, and i’m sleeping, and you’re at home with your thoughts, forget me. those photos, those things, all written, just keep them. it’s no wonder, and you wonder, thoughts, like i’d want back. use your head, go to bed, don’t stop and think once more. and in the car,...
I need you like a heart needs a beat
i need
sleep.
water.
mexico.
sleep.
sleep.
this.
coca cola.
sleep.
you.
“we patched it up with chewing gum and scotch tape”
– norm hewitt (so it IS that easy).
keep thoughts in a jar.
because you’ve been there. you’ve been around long enough to know. the fractures are healing. it’s been more of a reconstructive sort of deal. it’s taken more than one visit. it’s actually taken 5. the clouds in the sky have been staying awake, but i’m pretty sure i see them coming back. and you make me want to jump in it. if you were there, i would jump in to...
thread it... .. . .
you remind me of clouds shape shifting, stars not aligning, shoes piled high, childrens toys far and few, drinking just to stay, talking only to keep it going, and working as not to feel it.
“Being noticed can be a burden. Jesus got himself crucified because he got...”
– bob d.
ten things with s (i love)
1. stars (4am please)
2. soloman (peter pan)
3. sweetarts (favorite candy)
4. spanish names (i prefer marielena or emma)
5. sunshine (all the time)
6. sebastian (nephew)
7. salt water taffy
8. saxaphones (flashbacks)
9. showers (2 times daily)
10. secrets
thank you nat.
i live in my dream, i dont really live in the...
someone should set me straight. we’re tugging on feelings. you have mine, under a tree, between some sun and the shade. who knows if i have yours. don’t worry. don’t let it get to you. don’t do one thing about it. i worry about it. i wonder about it. i fall hard. i wonder, wonder, wander, walk, walk, lost. let’s read it out under here. let’s wonder, wander, tug,...
“Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions, their...”
– Oscar Wilde
“love is conditional.”
– but you keep telling yourself it’s not.
b.y.s.
feel it, feel it. when we’re close, it’s harder to let it go. there might be things i’m reminded of, faces, moments, the sea, breeze, nowhere, not here, 3000 in the other way. but the timing, it’s an issue. it’s always a problem, lose it? let’s get back to the earlier days, you don’t know me. we’ll meet. i’ll meet you after 2. and we’ll...
lets go, please. thank you.
“got a bruise on my pinky ring from holding on too tight.”
– cocoR.
lost
don’t forget this once i’ve said it. i feel like being selfish today. so i’ll tell you, over, over, over. about the stars you’ll see. and they won’t compare. i’ve lost the same ones over and over. blend in, get lost. so lost that you don’t come out of it. and when you do, i’ll have one more waiting for you. waiting for something to happen in dark...
sometimes i go back and read things, and wish i knew what i was referring to.
“…I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into...”
– Haruki Murakami (and i don’t even mind it.)
“if on such a night we could remain behind in the gardens, as the famous maimie...”
– j.m.b. (so many good things happen if you remain behind)
a blurrrr
they dont blend, the clouds, when they should it seems. and they move, they move. we’ll stare until we’ve lost it. the shape, no, the pattern. and we find the one star between it, won’t it move, try and focus. but we’re moving instead, we’ll just go around you. don’t move, take it easy, let the world spin till we’ve lost it. you just stay put, i’ll...
how the mind wanders.
ropa vieja. spins. swingers. short stop. i.c.s. from d.r.. angel game. plane rides. poetry nights. view toppers. bruno. better thumbs. softball games. elephants. giraffes. vegan food. hawai’i. i love vegan food. fiji. dland. funny pants like i’m wearing now. that stupid island i’ve never visited at dland. pajama pants?. pants from ethipia. ethiopia. chinese prostitutes who know...
“if you end up with a boring miserable life because you listened to your mom,...”
– frank zappa (via mercifuldiatribe)
“things don’t need an ending.”
– me. in a blur. 