January 2009
19 posts
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t...”
– Louise Erdrich (via everybodycares)
dear little booger,
i’ve been waiting a long time to meet you. i’ve thought about you every single day since the first time i knew of you. i might have even cried, probably, i don’t know, but it was all out of love. a long time ago i used to think of you. i’d wonder what you would look like, how you would act, if you would love me just as much back. i always knew though, that one day...
“don’t get involved unless you’re willing to let your heart get...”
– someone smart
im thinking:
- blanks.
pure blanks.
“when the power of love overcomes the love of power, everyone will understand...”
– dorothy day
you can always start over tomorrow morning.
and we’d have our lives together. i haven’t forgotten. i’d see you in the morning through lazy eyes. i’d see you on the other side. why did i ever have a problem with that before? you’d kiss me. i’d keep still and tangled i’d reach to your side and i’d find your hand. just hold mine, please, let me skip your fingers through mine. still with...
it's just my stubborness, again.
dead centered and in the middle makes it difficult to feel either way. but how did i hurt you so much? how did i lose my heart and hurt you? i remember your laugh. i laugh with it. can i hear it again? let’s hear it together. your touch was akward, let’s try it again. is it i’m nervous? i could sense it both ways. i’m speaking your way. i was stubborn. still am. ...
do it.
i will open up. get things together. i’m not that simple. i worry about my future. its time for you to do the same.
puzzles go one way
it just feels so good. because it’s where i’m supposed to be. wrapped up. and it’s fine. so good. and i’m anxious. i hope it’s the same, maybe better. but i’m more skeptical. it won’t be. because i’ve been up to no good. and you wouldn’t approve. but you’ll force yourself to be. and i don’t mind it at all. we needed to waste that...
just lie, for now.
and it is a lie i’ve realized, convinced myself, actually, and it’s like i’ve known it all along, cause i have. and i do. and i feel it. the lies. they just linger, most likely all over my face, but you. you’d never know it. you see past it because it’s real. but only to you. maybe you know it’s a lie as well. i just stayed hooked to it. and i’ve...
this is just life, you know?
and its not that i try to make it so complicated, you know? but this is my life, and i believe the world in my own way, and maybe we just have different ways of doing it. like you adore the process of over thought, and maybe, just a bit too far at times, maybe, you dont feel like you believe you should, and so you make it up and so maybe i try to be too realistic, and you just try and help me see...
alot
i could be that girl i talk about. the girl that believes in angels questions god. while this one looses friendships she gains life. that thing that separates me. i know what im for i know what i stand for. ill drink waht life gives me and i will inhale you. i wish youd know this girl. mistakes have happend. lessons were learned. they will all occur again. she’ll value beliefs. both hers and...